This is tough but here we are . Let me tell you that as I type tonight I am slightly kicking and screaming about it. For over two years now I have been extremely disobedient. Regardless of what you believe or who you call king of your life- we all know that feeling of " trusting your gut"... for me I call it listening to the Holy Spirit. For two years the Lord has been quietly whispering, turned to regularly chatting, to honestly yelling, back to silence toward me on something in my life that I have very blatantly turned my cheek on. Holy Spirit telling me that it's time to start writing more for far too long. He has shown me repetitively that we can make a difference with the words we use and sharing that encouragement with others here is something I am being called to do.
Part of me wants to ramble on about this and how we have got to this point but guess what? We will have plenty of time here to do just that. WHY? Because after much prayer and contemplation and pleading with the Lord- I am committing to writing here publicly for all of Lent. < insert all my eye rolls > Part of it may be my Catholic upbringing or sensitive spirit but Lent is always a really important time me. As a kid I took giving up things very seriously- like that time I gave up chex mix in high school and thought I may not live to make it through Easter ( the dramatics haven't changed much in 18 years I guess ) But as I dove headfirst into a relationship with Christ as an adult it became a very sacred time in both my heart and my relationship with God's word . I switched from giving up to transforming a space in life. Last year I started social media fasting on Sundays and am happy to report that this stuck and has been life giving.
Bottom line... today I have nothing to say. Some days I probably won't share posts anywhere but I will write them and hit publish no matter what. Every day but Sunday from now until Easter all the tiny bits of my heart will be poured out here hopefully to bring encouragement, ideas, and probably some humor to whoever may need to hear just that.
Here is a random picture of a mountain in Denali National Park shot through a window to say HAPPY LENT which is kind of a weird thing to say I GET IT but this season really is a joyous one. This picture makes me feel like the season ahead- partially dark, gloomy , cold , but also filled with beauty and grace because we know what is to come under all that snow.
( Also for anyone new- I do not edit or use proper grammar or any of the things. Leave now if you have time to care about silliness such as this . Thanks.)
-B
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