#10

I say it often but our family really was made to live in Alaska. Hopefully I will have time to dive into this all a little more but this state was meant for us to call home for a time, maybe eventually forever. Anxiety has been a little high lately- as any military spouse can tell you about PCS season ( that time we move . Sometimes across the continent and stuff ) but the idea of leaving feels as necessary and right as it does overwhelming. We love Alaska and leaving is going to be tough.  In two months our household goods will be packed up and sent to hopefully arrive in Texas by August , you really never know though .

The 5 of us will begin living in our camper trailer for about two months including most of a month traveling around this great state then onto our new home together. Camper life sounds SUPER fun, I know I know, it's all over the Internet today as such a dream and I KNOW it really is! Getting to see so many place right out our " front door" on wheels will be the adventure of a lifetime. What keeps playing in my brain is how anyone is going to sleep  - the toddler sure won't be under the actual midnight sun and the nonexistence of her normal afternoon naps. 

We also don't currently have a home to be going to which is another fear which will come together as it always does. Our middle son's Asthma is currently under control but it has also been winter for a little bit. We have spent time on the summer road admitted to the hospital for days 14 hours from home because of his breathing. Were we in a 1985 fully carpeted motorhome? YES. Was that probably the cause? of course. But the fear will forever be there in my anxious brain. 

Yesterday in prayer I gave this season over the Lord finally. I declared this all out of my hands and that I believe that what ever is to come is for good, as His word says. Immediately that afternoon the idea of my 2019 Marathon goals came to mind. The fall is not an option as I will be solo parenting again .. ya for real.. and the El Paso Marathon in February feels much too far! The seed was planted that maybe just MAYBE I could swing 16 weeks training starting now to tackle the only 26.2 miles I haven't experienced yet in this state the Mayor's Marathon in June. After some sitting down and mapping out our camper travels we landed in the right place at the right time - ANCHORAGE ! With the campsite there just a mile away from the starting line you guys, at the high school my Mom graduated from none-the-less. 

The ONLY logical thing to do smack dab in the middle of a summer PCS from Alaska to Texas while living in a camper with your family of 5 is of course run a marathon right? YEEESSSS! Marathon training has become my state of normalcy and peace in so many ways through motherhood that this has fully grounded everything for this seemingly chaotic time ahead. My legs will be so sore NOTHING ELSE WILL MATTER ! 

Today the Lord has given me total rest over all of this. The details I'd been anxious over are already falling into place and the ones that aren't - guess what? They sure will in their time. Training started today and a new smarter method I am trying out already feels fresh and renewing for the body as well as mind. So here is to a glorious Marathon #10 ! The final Alaska race and all of the stories this coming season will have to tell along with it.

xoxo

B